This is my first blog post. I am going to turn my new Rainmaker Platform personal website on tonight and publish this post, and I’m terrified!
I’m not a web master, far from it. This website is not set up fully enough, or so I tell myself. The page organization is wrong and can be improved. Who in their right mind would turn on a website with only ONE blog post? Are you crazy Calvin?
I want to share my story. My story of success. But my “success” isn’t good enough yet, it’s not complete enough. I haven’t done EVERYTHING I’ve set out to do in life. It isn’t all perfect yet. If I only give it more time, maybe I can get it all accomplished and perfect enough to share it with you.
Speaking of YOU, who exactly are you? Who will ever find this site in a sea of personal websites? And even if you do happen to find me, what will you think of me, and what I’m writing about. Will it be of any interest to you? Will it add any value to your life? Will it help you become more successful? More importantly, will it help you become more at peace and fulfilled?
So on goes the inner critic inside my head, telling me all of the reasons why I should not even try and write this one little blog post in the first place, let alone get up the courage to actually push the “Go Live” button and hang it out there for the whole world to see!
But that inner critic is not going to win tonight, I am!
My story is not much different I suppose from thousands if not millions of other small business owners who have poured their hearts and souls into a small business, first trying just to survive, later to just making a living, and finally getting to place where the business and its employees become a family and an entity in its own right, a living, breathing, wonderful thing that needs to be continually nurtured and led.
I started in business for myself 14 years ago, out of my townhome. Several years into being a sole practitioner, I read a book by Michael E. Gerber, E-Myth Revisited: Why Most Small Businesses Don’t Work and What to Do About It. The first time I read it, although it made sense, it didn’t really sink in. You see, I was way too busy working in my business, which was still basically a start-up, a one-man show.
A couple years later, I came across the book again and read it a second time. This time , a cacophony of bells and whistles were going off in my head as I was reading it. It all made sense now! The pain and struggle of working 16-hour days, doing everything myself opened up my eyes, and my heart, to what Michael was sharing.
That was about eight years ago now, right around the time of the Great Recession. In the years since then, I have — with help from many others — grown a practice from one person (me) and less than $100,000 in revenue to a firm that now has 14 staff and should produce revenues well over seven figures this year. Of course, there goes that inner critic again telling me that isn’t good enough — that I’m not really qualified to share any of my hard-won wisdom with the world at large!
According to a BusinessKnowHow.com 2012 Survey, only 4% of small businesses generate over $1 million in sales annually. So, I guess we are in the top 4% of all small businesses. Cool!
Some more fun Small Business Facts for my Inner Critic from the Captera Finance Software Blog:
- About 50% of small businesses fail in the first four years. So, I guess since my business has lasted 14 years that we’re not doing too bad, huh?
- For businesses with less than 5,000 employees, the average employment is 13. I guess that makes us “above average” in terms of staffing — a nice thought.
While I could go on and on with small business statistics, I’m going to stop myself. My perfectionism wants to, but I’m “conquering” that tonight.
The point is this: I’ve built a small business that is in the Top 4% of all small businesses in the U.S. in terms of annual revenues. That’s pretty good, and I should be pretty proud of that accomplishment. And, I think it gives me the right, and credentials, to share my small business-building journey with you here on my new website, www.CalvinCummings.com.
So, even though I’m afraid of “going live” and publishing this first blog post, and even though I should probably wait until I can get everything “just right” and “perfect” before I push that dreaded “PUBLISH” button, I’m going to push through my fear, I’m not going to wait any longer. I’m just going to feel the fear and DO IT anyway.